when darkness comes- and they come to us all,
we feel so helpless, lost and small.
we cannot fathom the reason why,
and its futile for us to try
to find the answer, reason or cause,
for the Master's plan is without any flaws.
And when darkness shuts out light,
we must lean on our faith to restore our sight.
for there is nothing we need to know,
if we have faith wherever we go.
God will be there to help us bear,
our disappoinment, pain and cares.
He is our shepherd, our Father, our guide,
and you're never alone with the Lord at your side.
-HSR-



thanks stef for the wonderful poem..its really encouraging. those who read i hope u feel the same way too.
i just realized that prelims are next next week. and my bio and chem prac are alr over. i dont want to know how i did. i only know im gonna do really horrible, and it will really be god's grace to help me get A1 for both chem and bio. sigh. i must study very hard for paper 2.



inside outside is so nice. haunting.
and so is 'fix you'..i need that wind to come take me away and consume me.
this life we're living now, will it be difficult for us to let go?
will we hold on to what is temporary, material, and forfeit or lose sight of what awaits us- our home, our reward?
are we craving for the world's attention, striving to be the best so we will be recognized?
or are we looking only at what our King wants, and doing our best to make him feel proud, to put that smile on His face?



oh flutter,
make me cry.
this tears of joy.
sunshine, for whom your light falls on,
let them touch me.
touch and oh,
my soul flies.
heavenward, my soul flies.

6:12 PM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

ok. im so NOT SUPPOSED to come online. but ruh. it was really a tough week. fell sick. and i din go sch on thurs. was feeling so weak on the bus hm fm tuition on wed. and i hate my nose. wish i could pluck it out and plant a NEW one. hur. and i cant believe i slept only 1h plus on thurs. woke up at 1( i din go sch) and studied til 4am in the morn.. i think im mad. went to sch feeling weird and totally weird. then took the geog mock and i was so tired. but incredibly i went mad. *grins.
CHARLENE: LAO PO BING.
ahh hahaha. seriously went mad in class that day despite the fact that i slept only for an hr plus. hahas.
and i went char s hse and she went hysterical. kicking on the bed like a mad woman and trying to scare me but failing all the time.- shakes head - and i went to my uncles hse for tuition. til 11 plus. almost died that night la. woohoo. went back and immediately went to slp.
this upcoming week is gonna be something like that again. but i hope i ll nv sleep so little again. it seems to worsen my constipation. (tried to shit in sch on fri but my intestines hurt.) ruhh.


im stressed. but happy. =) call me weird and god. just let me look at you.

8:46 PM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

i overslept again. its irritating. but dint really misssed much except ms zarinah went thru the ss paper and it was good (gini said). anw. i dono what to say. prelims are less than a mth but im not studying very hard. sigh. its so bad. and im super distracted.
and tuition on sun was horrible. too lazy to type out. ruhhhhh. and i need to study for my maths test tmr n geog mock on fri and bio on thurs. what joy.


help me to see things from your point of view.
that i may love as you did.
that i may care as you did.

10:28 PM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

6:11 PM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

whooo!
fop was great last night! went mad and sang n jumped n praised god. and it took alot of courage for me to just kneel before god in my seat. i mean at hm its easy for me to do..but with so many ppl i was scared. ok..its kinda dumb but..ya..im glad i did that..and god just broke my heart..and i just cried and wept before him..
i love you more than life. and i just sang that and worshiped him.


oh. anyone with delirious cd? please burn it for me!!!! beginning to like them so much. specialy rain down. and here we come! i think micheal smith is cute! grins.

rise up young people. rise up. take courage.. ask god for boldness and courage..
these just rammed straight into my heart. i must take my stand and really be a light that shines in the darkness. i will have to make sacrifices. and be willing to be shamed and ridiculed by others. .to stand out? and its gonna be difficult for me..cause im quite timid.
and the past week has been a hectic one. having so little sleep and plenty of mishappenings and bad days. but i truly thank god for bringin me thru those dark and horrible moments with countless thots in my head.

*prayer is like a slender nerve that moves the muscle and hand of god*
i pray more. realised ive not been praying enough. ruhh. caron ure irritating.

cmon cmon we'll tell the world about you!

12:40 PM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

hectic. all i know of life now is study, study and study. and only you lord. see these tears that fall. and only you wipe them away. no one else can take you away.
and as the days get tougher, and life seems harder, i will look to you and call upon your name, for my hope is in you all day long, my lord, my god, my redeemer.

10:24 PM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

shout it out (:

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all the brothers and sisters

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of old.

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credits.

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wonderful people

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